Today Day 47

I can't believe I have 47 days on this diet! That is well over 10 percent. When I run out of the yogurt and provisions, I am going to start over again with Phase 1. I think that will hold me in good stead. I do not have a lot of gas though and I do think healing is going on. I am wondering about the dairy.

Have been listening/reading Jordan and Steve. I am not an engineer so don't have that personality. However, I do have staying power. That is one thing I do have and I will stay with this. My new life is worth it. Otherwise it is not a life. Not to be too ADD but it reminds me of a TV show I saw recently about a 600 pound woman and her life was miserable. She was manipulative and babyish and that is the opposite of me (I hope). No sense being weak in this world. It will gobble you up:)

Day 45

This means 1-1/2 months exactly. I don't feel momentum slipping, just wish that last week I didn't eat the dried fruit. I know if I went completely low carb I would lose weight faster but now that I am back on desipramine, life is good. It is nice to know that the doctor is supporting me. Might be going on a date soon so the challenge will be to stay with it and not deviate. No man or promise of a man is going to trip me up. Not accepting or over questioning my diet is a deal-breaker. If I end up alone, so be it. My health is the most important thing!

Hit a wall

This post should have been titled, "No more honey!" A little bit of a grieving process here. Maybe should try sugar-free ways to make muffins...

Sad, but really in the scheme of things, other people have things way sadder. Maybe I can have honey later in life.

Day 37

So today is Day 37. Wow, what an accomplishment! I'm a little nervous about the changes I made yesterday and I believe that time will tell whether I can have pineapple or apple cider vinegar. Time will tell. Very busy with cooking, very busy but will cut all of that if it turns out I can't eat it. Off to make some fish and go to the store for dry mustard and nutmeg and currents.

So it's been a few days

And I've been really good. Today is Day 33. 335 days left to go. If I do the math, I'm over 1/12 of the way there. I always can count on getting atta girls from Judy and I sure did. I told her I was down a dress size and she said it looks like I've lost 15 pounds. I think a lot of it is fluid because my immune system is letting go of some of its protection. I also had my first really good bm in ages yesterday. It was after I started the stomach acid. It was a type 3 or 4 and really long. I felt like I got rid of five pounds right there and it gave me the courage to try on the green pants and guess what?  They fit! By next week I will try the tan ones because these have stretch and I'm not sure about the other ones. But this is progress! It really is...it gives me hope because I not only can do it, I am doing it and just for myself and not for anyone else. Wow, this is the last time I will be a prisoner of anything--addictive food or a woe that does not work for me. I feel really strong. I would like to become more confident in everything I do. I'm going a mile a minute and the only thing I'm getting tired of doing is cooking and shopping because that has been my life. As soon as Wes gets his license, things will be easier because he can shop for me once a week. Can't wait---freedom beckons!

Sorry I've been bad

I've been remiss in my accountability. However, I'm chugging along. Persistence has been the theme of the hour these days. A lot of the things I have accomplished in my life have been due to sheer persistence and this diet is no exception. Funny how food and diet can affect your thinking. I'm not letting that happen any more. Each day will be beautiful because I'm going to make it that way. I've been making it day by day because of these challenges!

Day 25

So I am really feeling the benefits. I went to the store yesterday and did not automatically take a cart with me. Usually I take a cart for balance because I am so tired. This diet is working! I am down half of a dress size maybe more and by next week I can be in the size 12 pants. I have two pair so that's better than what I have now. It was a little bit of a struggle avoiding pastry (Scott offered me some), foods offered by Siloo, and also potato. Not so much a struggle but a preview of what it will be like to say No when I'm hungry or when the days go on and on. But I can do it. I found a great saying today by Allen Cohen:
  

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."